Growing pains

Part of change is dealing with the growing pains. Our household constantly in transition. The body parts that hurt are the lessons we learn along the way. We learn as parents to deal with the changes that occur physically, emotionally and spiritually as our children grow. I am in awe when God provides avenues for us to grow with our children. I have battled with balance and purpose. I've always stormed through life with a purpose for each phase in my life.

And, in this moment I am at a crossroad. Trying to determine my next path. I have done for others, worked alongside some great people and created a life with substance. Yet,  I feel unfulfilled. My maximum ability not maximized. I envisioned greater things. Leaving a legacy for my children. I feel I have been stagnant for sometime, comfortable with having things in my control. Fear of failing so easier to stay within my comfort zone.

I tell my kids to try their best,  do more, aim higher and I have been so focused on mothering and being a wife. I lost some of my identity. The last 4 months has given me an opportunity to slow down and reasses where I want to be 10 years from now. Who I want to be surrounded by and I realize I need to go back to my roots. The values that were instilled in me.

I am blessed to have a great support system who keeps me grounded. My loves remind me that I can "be" and support my crazy idealistic views of the world. I believe in people. I BELIEVE IN GOOD. I shouldn't let naysayers, negative energy and haters change me, my family and leaving our legacy. We can love one another, share our gifts  with others and help humanity. I want to teach my kids, there is a world outside of our community where don't have the basic necessities such as food, shelter, education and freedom. I want my kids to go through the growing pains to live enriched lives. I am a better person to go through my own growing pains. Realizing my capacity to grow through each phase in my life. To look back at my experiences which have given me opporunities to learn.