Step forward

As my oldest is getting ready to promote I feel mixed emotions and I am not the only one. My children are exhibiting behaviors that are not normal. I have an unstable tween and nine year who acts like a 20 year old. Both feeling the anxiety of moving on to the next school year.

I laugh because I can barely recall how I behaved at home. But, I am sure I've blocked out all the girl drama, my highs and lows as a teen and the friction it caused as a result of my behavior.

I laugh even louder when I look back at how much my older kid is like me. She had a meltdown. Not once but 3 times. Here's the kicker at Disneyland of all places! The happiest place on earth!!! Wow, if that's an indication of how I look. Good grief...I need to hug my husband. He tolerates my shenanigans well. And, I should hug him harder because there are 3 girls in my home. Haha, I pray he has more hair by the time the girls finish high school. Poor thing!

But, I have to be thankful we were in the public. Otherwise, she would have heard a mouthfull from me. And, even more thankful her Godmother was there. Her words resonated in my mind that night. "Don't let things get in the way of having a great time"! Brilliant concept.

It didn't quite sink in right away but as the day progressed it got better. The kids got to ride what they were hoping to get on. Malfunction fixed!

This same child getting ready to promote is going through so much change inside and out. She looks like a different child from one year ago. And, when I see her I have to remember her age. Her brain is still processing how to deal with stepping forward. How is she coping with a big transition? With mixed emotions: anxiety, sadness, anger, joy. And, hence the meltdown!!!!

I love that she can communicate with me feelings and that she is passionate about what she loves. Including the people she surrounds herself with...and I see bonds developing over time. I pray that these girls step forward with courage and vigilance.