I've been enjoying the quiet moments of the day. When the kids are still asleep and I can lay in bed. Thinking about the upcoming day and saying my gratitudes for all that I have to look forward to. There are moments during the day when I get overwhelmed with all the duties of teaching, managing a household, mothering and maintaining balance in our household. A recent conversation with my husband was enlightening because he said acknowledged the order in house is because of me. I was thankful he recognized and validated what I do because all too many times, I generally feel I am inadequate since tasks get undone. My mind always in a flurry and testy tempers flare when the household when overwhelmed with projects, extracurricular activities and school work.
I asked my oldest daughter one saturday morning if she was happy and what I could do to help her get to that happy place. She and I have been butting heads on a daily basis. She couldn't answer my question be she was unsure and caught off guard. We had just argued about a hairstyle. Both of us tired from the week and not getting enough sleep. It's not an excuse but a reality. My child is so much like me. She is driven, wanting each situation, outfit, hairstyle, grades...to be perfect. How did she become like this? Anxious little girl that stresses over minute things. It probably me setting the tone and her watching me over the years.So, I am going to practice what I preach in class. Stress management. Balancing physical, emotional, environmental and intellectual health.
I will schedule less, not overbook, create space to breathe, work smart, work less and enjoy the present. Not allow others to annoy me who won't matter years from now. Choose quality time with my family and friends. Nuture the relationships that are raw and real. Where I can share my emotions without feeling judged or fear of revealing my inner most thoughts. I am learning to be comfortable with letting go of things and people that have runned their course in my life. The experiences in my my life and the poelle have come into it have taught me well about myself. What I value. And, sometimes things don't play out as planned. It worked out and helped shaped my perspective. Grateful for those who taught me life's lessons, those who have held my hand, cried with me, and shared my triumphs.
I am enjoying these days. Thankful for the changes happening, transitions in our home and seeing my family evolve. The roots spreading and seeing the foundation my parents gave me being passed down.
